Mock Transfer/Consultation Update

God was once again gracious to us, and everything went extremely well today at our mock transfer/consultation. Everything looked wonderful with my lining and Lord willing, will look wonderful for the actual transfer which will be in JULY!!! Yep, we will be going back to adopt our babies sometime in July - the actual date will be given to us sometime at the end of May, along with the profiles of the embryos that will be waiting for adoption then.

The nurse went over all the meds that I will begin taking around June - LOTS more meds for the actual transfer than the mock transfer! Aaron was given a brief tutorial on how to give my PIO (progesterone in oil) shots, which will require an extra measure of God's grace to him because he is terrified of needles! But, he agreed, as do I...anything for our babies. :)

The NEDC staff was wonderful and we are excited that we decided to go through them for our embryo adoption. The only negative aspect of the whole appointment was my full bladder! I was only told to drink 48-62 oz and wound up drinking 67 oz and once Dr. K saw my ultrasound, he agreed that I had a REALLY full bladder and told me that I won't need to drink as much for the actual transfer...which believe me, I won't...it was quite painful.

One Week Away From Knoxville!

Lord willing, one week from today, we should be at our hotel in Knoxville getting ready for our mock transfer the following morning! WooHoo! I'm not really looking forward to drinking 48-62 oz of water prior to the appointment (and can't relieve myself until afterwards) nor am I looking forward to the sonohysterogram (SHG), which may cause some slight discomfort...But, I am definitely looking forward to being one step closer to our babies!

I started my Estrace on Tuesday and had an episode of nausea and vomiting on Friday morning while getting dressed - I think it was due to the fact that I didn't eat dinner the night prior nor breakfast that morning when I took the pill. I have been sure to take it with food this weekend and have had no side effects. However, I hope that more nausea and vomiting are in my near future...Because, if our babies implant and begin growing, I will welcome such unpleasant things. :)

By the way, do any of my South Carolina friends still follow our blog? I rarely see comments from you guys, mostly comments from other adopting mommies, so just wondering if you're still following us on this journey? :)

Wanting Grace to Trust Him More...

I have always struggled with the sin of worry. I have been a Christian now for 12 years and wonder when this area of my heart will be sanctified?! Maybe not here on this earth at all, because the sanctification of a believer is a lifelong process and sin will never be completely gone from our hearts until Heaven. But, by the grace of God, I hope to grow in this area. God has continually proven Himself faithful in my life, but whenever a new concern arises, I doubt Him all over again.

This adoption is one of the biggest circumstances in my life where I've had many worries and He has guided and provided for each step of the way. For every step that we've taken, I've worried. Will we have enough money? Will our home study be difficult and awkward? Will the social worker not find us "parent material?" Will the NEDC ever call to schedule my mock transfer? And yesterday arose the most ridiculous worry of all...Will my cycle start on time this month so I can begin my Estrace? I was only about a day or two late, but my mind had already began doubting God (to the point of tears!...should've known she was on her way!) and thinking that this one month, my body would do something crazy and I wouldn't be able to start my Estrace in time and would have to cancel my mock transfer. And my worry proved to be absolutely nothing at all!

My biggest worry though, is What if none of our babies are born on this earth for us to raise as their parents? I know that they will be in Heaven, which is far better than being frozen on earth. But, I (we) really, really want at least one of these sweet lives to stick around here with us - on the first transfer! I'm a little nervous even typing that, because I know there are no guarantees...this adoption is such a test of faith. Please pray though, that if it be the Lord's will, there will be a live birth as the result of our first transfer.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:44

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:4-6

3 Weeks Before the Mock Transfer!

Only 4 more days left of my BCPs and then I'll be starting my Estrace in about a week!

Last week, Aaron's supervisor wanted to know if he could work a conference in May, but with our embryo transfer not scheduled yet, he didn't want to commit. But, his supervisor really needed to know, so he called the NEDC last week to ask how likely a May transfer would be. They said again (like they told me in January) that it would be in either May or July, but they didn't know for sure which yet. But, they told him that we should have a date scheduled before we leave our mock transfer appointment on March 29th - We're really hoping that this statement will prove to be true and that when we leave Knoxville, we'll know when we will actually be going back to get our babies! Aaron's supervisor was gracious to let him work a conference in August and be free for a May or July transfer. :)

It's Finally March!

Nothing new to report,... except that it is finally March!!! I have told Aaron for weeks now, how many more weeks we had until March, and then how many more days until March, and I told him twice today that it is March 1st (I told him early this morning before work and then emailed him at work later today to remind him that it was indeed March 1st) Can you tell we're excited?! :)

We visited family in Columbia this weekend, and have something going on every weekend in March, so time should start flying by. And hopefully, in April, the NEDC will schedule the date for our REAL transfer sometime either in their May or July cycle...we shall see what God wills!

Also, check out this link that Dr. Russell Moore (Dean of Southern Baptist Theological Seminary in Louisville, KY) wrote in response to someone asking "Is Embryo Adoption Immoral?" It was a great post - very Biblical and thorough! If someone in your circle of family or friends is confused by embryo adoption, this is a great resource to share!

I am one very excited girlie!
Jennifer :)